'I'm feeling awesome' selfie. #joy
'I'm feeling awesome' selfie. #joy
Ruben’s Journey To Recovery. It’s hard to summarize Ruben Pineda in a few words. However, those who know him would describe him as a man of integrity and potential. He is passionate and has so much left to give to others. Ruben was currently studying Physics at University of Texas at Arlington to transfer to Chicago’s Colombia University and finish his undergrad in Acoustic Engineering. He was also working at Oakcliff Bible Fellowship as a sound engineer doing what he loved. Ruben is kind. Generous. Funny. Passionate. Intelligent. Hardworker. And with a servant’s heart. On August 23rd, 2014 around 1am he was heading back home when his car broke down on I30. He pulled over to the shoulder lane to check the problem and while he was in front of the car another vehicle hit him from behind. Being that it was on a highway, the car was going at full speed causing Ruben to fall a 50 feet height. Ruben was rushed to JPS Fort Worth Hospital with life threatening injuries. He was in surgery for over 5 hours and sent to the ICU in critical condition. He has since been fighting for his life. Is heavily sedated and on a ventilator, making small recoveries daily. Another factor to this tragedy is that the driver who crashed into Ruben’s car did not have any insurance. Therefore, his family is left with the financial responsibility. We continue to believe that God will provide a complete healing and restoration for his life.
I got my red dress on tonight
Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight
Done my hair up real big beauty queen style
High heels off, I’m feeling alive
Oh, my God, I feel it in the air
Telephone wires above are sizzling like a snare
Honey, I’m on fire, I feel it everywhere
Nothing scares me anymore
— Lana Del Rey, Summertime sadness
take some time from your double life to watch this.
— Natalia listening to Skee-Lo and thinking of Colombian cakes.
1. MMA and Muay Thai ‘stuff’ —- I am able to watch UFC fights (if needed, I don’t do it for pleasure) and I know exactly what is going on. So, with that I also get to start conversations at watch parties with people I’ve just met. Michael was my very first real boyfriend, he took me to my prom and met both of my grandparents. He was the real deal at time. As soon as I got my first car though I started to get as far away from him as I could. I needed time to myself and I wasn’t going to spend my time watching him wrestle around with other dudes at the gym. No offense.
I am still good friends with him, and he is still training. With this relationship I learned not only what a ‘downward roadhouse kick’ is but I stepped out of my comfort zone with him and I learned to stand up for myself.
2. Fishing License and Country Music —- Yes! I learned how to fish and yes, I did get my fishing license. It was not something that I enjoyed but it was something new. I also did a lot of two-steppin’ which I honestly would have never tried if it wasn’t for E. E, as I liked to call him was a big fan of country music, obviously, and at the time I wanted to embrace my Latin culture and just dance to Salsa music day and night. He was NOT into that at all. That wasn’t the reason why it did not work out between us, though - I was still very young and selfish at the time, I didn’t really care much about what he wanted and maybe I did not take the relationship as serious as he did. I do recognize a Randy Roger’s Band Song and Johnny Cooper when they come on the radio, though. And no, I do not hate country music.
3. An appreciation for Hip Hop and an introduction to new literature including, Jonathan Safran Foer and Agusten Burroughs.
I was 22 when I started dating Jonathan, and I am no longer too proud to admit that I did learn a lot from him, his appreciation for art (all kinds of art) amazed me. I had never met a guy like him. Jonathan loved Hip Hop, and I learned to appreciate it, too. This guy absolutely loved music and he was always learning something new. He had this routine, every morning he would get up and check Pitchfork online and he already knew who had released what and where. He read a few pages of ‘Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close’ to me one night, and I loved it. So yeah, he not only introduced me to Jonathan Safran Foer but to Agusten Burroughs, too.
It’s safe to say that this was the first time where I was in a relationship with a boy that I absolutely loved —- so I learned to care for others and not just for myself —- and that is something that did not stop doing since then.
The good and the bad in this relationship I still cherish, I also have a ton of funny stories and I met Linda because of him, too.
4. Cooking —- Obviously, the world is different at 25. I started really taking care of myself, I stopped drinking and I started cooking. My relationship with Ben was really short but I encouraged myself to really learn how to cook, well, really, to actually want to cook. Cooking wasn’t something that I enjoyed in the past, my mother has always loved it, but I never did. So I learned to. Ben loved food just as much as I did, and being with him encouraged me to try new things. I could not wait for him to come over so he could try the new homemade Pho I had just learned how to make or easy things like, pancakes —- delicious pancakes that is.
Even if what I cooked was not the best thing in the world Ben appreciated it. He showed his appreciation even for sandwiches, which I didn’t think were anything special, but he liked them. And I liked the encouragement, the appreciation, which only made me want to cook even more.
Thanks, y’all (Smiley face).
— Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything is Illuminated (via feellng)
Several unfortunate events have happened in the last few weeks I have been in Mexico and with my family.
I firmly believe, though that I am exactly where God wants me to be. I am amazed every time I realize how everything does happen for a reason, how timing really IS everything - God’s timing is everything.
I am so grateful that I was able to be there for my mother, that I was able to hold her, to cry with her, to pray with her and for her — I am grateful for the time God allowed us to spend with my uncle and being able to spend time with him and my baby cousin — even though we had no idea that was the last time we’d see them together — I am grateful God allowed us all to be there that last time.
I made mistakes this year, but I know that it only helps me to grow, and it is always a lesson learned.
I am still struggling with personal demons, but I know now that I must seek help, I know that there is a way out and that I am strong enough.
More than ever I must remain strong, or try to right now — for myself and for my family, too.
I smile now realizing that everything that happened the last month I spent in Dallas was only to allow me to be focused on myself, to be focused on my family, my relationship with my mother and to focus on my relationship with God.
Honestly, there is no where else I’d rather be - than here - where God has put me.